seriously. i dont know why. my weight has been going down ever since friday. its not that i did not do well for my Os. but just the courses i have been offered. but part of it is because of my results. its surprising that i passed my english with that kind of kuku grade. but overall is what i have expected. so please. like what i have said in tag, dont ask for my results or anyone else for my results. its like. i may get rude, but its really none of anyone's business. its just a passable grade i should say. which still can go for poly but chances are not that high. my aim is, as long as can go poly, no matter which course, as long as they want me, i will go. so ya. just let me be. its not a matter of attitude of what. but people who asked my results is really alot. only some who ask earlier i have told them and they kept asking me ok anot where i am perfectly fine about it. my parents did not even make a comment as they are all right will my results as long as i dont have any F9 in it which made it more beautiful without it. overall.. its okay. i will tell after the whole JAE and the results on 6th. so in the mean time, dont ask
its good thing that my weight goes down as time go by. but i seriously think that i will fall sick because of that. working 11-10 with a minimum amount of rest will make me fall.
i feel like a coward now. i dont know why. i think everyone thinks so. i admit. i am one. but so what. but this time. i think its a trouble that i created for myself. so i have to accept this fact of life. nonetheless, i think. its still a long way to go and life is still long to go. life is full of downs and ups. mine is currently upside down. but soon, in no time, it will get back to track and go the normal ways as it is. i have realised. people are selfish.if u are selfish, u will never admit it or even know it. people are unreasonable too. putting blames on others and never to themselves. i am the only one, who keep putting blames on myself which i take it couldnt take in any more which i hope to get rid of some to make space for other. i sounded so stupid now. but ya. what i want to say is. we should never give up on life. theres a will theres a way.
for me, i will want to live life to the fullest. cos u never know, when, u will be dying. just like the case of taiwan artiste Hsu Wei Lun. maybe. its just fated. u just never get to know the life book. but if u happen to know. its too late or perhaps u cant do anything but to live to the fullest.

Peace Out.