oh wells. it has been TIME since i last blogged. okay. its gonna be another long story to go.
from previous posts, i have been telling myself to change to change and to change, but i still wasnt able to. why must i always be the one giving in? why? like why? i really donno. im sick and tired of this. i never wanted to be a Shift 2 i/c. and so be it Shift i/c. in addition, when i listens to people's problem, i'll keep it in mind and try to express it out in a normal way. but i cant? why i cant? i dont know. previous posts i kept saying that i will try not to involved in any of those cohesion thingy. but i still went, cos i still treats them as camp mates, friends or even buddy. no matter what i've done, i've said, i still treats the person as friend. but why? why must i get all these shit? im just bothered by some personal issues in life and trying to be quiet, people says i give attitude. why? dont even bother to say about the case i blogged quite sometime ago about the gangsterism case. i still forget and forgo whatever it has got onto me. and now, you turned the table over, saying i give obvious attitude and stuffs that im in the wrong. what the hell? im such kind of person in you eye? i have give in more than what a friend shld do alr. i treated you as a buddy and i dont know sometimes you treated me as what? when problem arouses you talked to me, i give advices. when you are unhappy, wants to watch movie, i still digged out time to watch with you. when i needed someone to accompany or so, i dont find anybody. cos people will be busy with their stuffs and so. people says that im kinda sad, always going out alone. but whats with it? im used to it alr. i dont need. im tired. seriously tired. how i wished that i could be knock out now and never wake up.